I don't wanna fight no more

I can't sleep,
everything i ever knew,
Is a lie,
without you,

I can't breathe,
when my heart is broke in two,
There's no beat,
without you,

You're not gone,
but you're not here,
At least that's the way it seems tonight,
If we could try to end these wars,
I know that we can make it right,
cause baby,

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

How can I leave,
when everything that I adore,
and everything I'm living for,
Girl, it's in you,

I can't dream,
sleepless nights have got me bad,
The only dream i ever had,
is being with you,

I know that we can make it right,
It's gonna take a little time,
Lets not leave ourselves with no way out,
lets not cross that line,(that line)

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

Remember that i made a vow,
that i would never let you go,
I meant it then, I mean it now,
and i want to tell you so,

I don't wanna fight no more, (oh no)
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
(can we start)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more...

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for, (oh yeah)
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
(my heart)
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
(I'm hoping)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more.......

It's all a lie,
Without you,
without you......

Last Night on Earth?

I text a postcard sent to you
Did it go through?
Sending all my love to you
You are the moonlight of my life every night
Giving all my love to you
My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you

With every breath that I'm worth here on Earth
I'm sending all my love to you
So if you dare to second guess you can rest assured
That all my love's all for you

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
Did I ever make it through?
by
Chris,

My Life

Life had been a miserable journey to most of the failure, to those who able to make their way out of difficulties, they are no longer frustrated over something that is important to the world now ,Money. Those, who failed to do so. They are so call FAILURE. Perhaps there is a turning back for them, if they were lucky enough and win a lotry pot around 1M, which is impossible.

My life, is being worsen each days. I found out that I'm really a failure, as in failed in pursuing my studies when I'm supposed to study hard everyday. I should set my mind clear at first, knowing that studying hard and score a good results was my first priority in my life, at least for my teen life.

Now, I'm heading to 20. Not to say myself is very old and yet not that young either. At least, i think myself was a grown-man now. I could think properly on what to do and what is not supposed to do. Ever since I've born, i've been competing with my environment. Study hard, and be a useful person in the world and this is was something that i heard over million times from someone who really care and concerned about my future. Again, i failed to do so. I disappointed them. This is so PAIN. It's pain because your loved one, the one who loved you so much, he or she had just put so much of effort, hope, money on you. Wishing that you could be a successful man. At least not having a problem to earn a money and feed myself and nourish my hungry soul.

I really don't wish and do not want to waste my time no more. This is suffocating, it's so difficult to breathe whenever i flashback what I've done to myself. I'm just being selfish. The only thing I know was to seek fun in my life. The excitement to cure my boredom, and eventually, obviously that this fact had lead me to the downfall.

On the other hand, seeing my friends around me, holding their happiness when they get a very good results. They hold their emotions is just because they don't wish to hurt our feeling. The one who had scored bad like us do not deserve a single sympathy from anyone in this wolrd. We find it by ourself, and they should really enjoy their great results, celebrating it like nobody buisness. At one end, at least I'm here happy for them.

Always, always i have this thought in my mind. They are human, and I'm human too. They can did it so well, why not me? I tried to hold the thoughts about being fair and unfair. This thought is so selfish, i believed they did find a way and suck themself in just to get themself a good score. Which means that I didn't did hardwork enough. Yes, im certainly agreed to this point. I'm lazy freak, I'm slugabed. And, I make my future life a miserable journey, a journey which full of obstacles on my route and challenging problem are awaiting me.

STOP procrastinate? STOP aggravting my situations? STOP complaining.

SIGH, sigh and more sigh is the only thing i could do now. When will I only start to workhard? When will i know that what is important for me now and what is not?
sigh. Wishing I'm a stronger person than I've thought.

And last, My Life is Just so pathetic. (Trying to save myself, when no one can save me. I'm my own saviour of my own life.)

p/s: Just some of my thoughts in me. Tension in me which i feel like releasing. Correct my grammar mistake if you found any. I'm still exasperated over my own attitude. May God bless me. And good luck to you, i know you can do it better than anyone. JUST work hard on it.

GIVEN UP

I'm given up~!!!!
by linken park

SIGHNESS

I'm just not good in language field..
i knew it ever since i first stepped into My lovely secondary school...
sigh..
i disappointed myself, my family, my friends and "her"
though the test can be retake, but i really lose my confidence this time..
English Language is just like something that more important than education to an certain extend, at least when he or she could speak, write and listen well. Then, you will have the opportunity in getting a job at anywhere..
It's kinda true and this is the reality..
and the reality is never be kind to all of us..
SIGH
i have to retake the MUET test..
i suck at it..
:(
-chris-
p/s: thanks for cheering me up and being with me..=)

MUET results

2009 MID YEAR MUET RESULT
13 July 2009
Check by SMS from 12:01 am, 13 July 2009:
type MUET (spacebar) I/C No. and send to 36363
www.mpm.edu.my
from 8:30 am, 13 July 2009

i just wish that i could get band5, which i think is kinda impossible..
:(

Human Nature

When the death of MJ is annouced..
people started to woo~ wah~~
the lost of the King of Pop..
He is someone who united almost every single races on this earth..
at this time, people start to listening to his song, reveal his reality, his true face..
somehow, others would say when he's alive we didnt get to treasure him. Didn't even concerned about him but his bad news on molestiing children, bleaching his skin pigmentation colour and so on..
and now we said that there are many sad stories about him..
I supposed this is human nature, when something is gone only we will truly appreciate their work or whatsoever..
which i think this act is kinda normal among us..
when u dont feel any sadness or expression in you..
perhaps, you're just cold blooded..
even the next street auntie passed away, or whosoever passed away on this earth
i also will feel the sorrow..
the grief in my heart..
and now..
I'm sincerely pray that MJ is R.I.P
he had really done lots of things on this earth and he had suffered enough from the media..
May God Be With You..
-chris-
p/s: things could just happen next second.. i really hope all of us could treasure the people around us, dont wait till the chances are gone only u learn the lesson. It wil be too late for everything...WE ARE THE WORLD =)